Change
Change is a good thing.
I’ve never questioned change, though I have to admit sometimes to not embracing it immediately. Change can be a great many things. Some of which we do without noticing, some require more effort to change, while others, the changes that are made for us are the least favourable and often the most despised and feared.
Much of my life is made up of a bunch of meaningless, but welcome changes.
Its the little things we change on a daily basis. In fact, this entire entry was spawned when I found myself changing my computer wallpaper again. Something I do very regularly. Sometimes on a week-to-week basis. Sometimes even more often.
I change signatures I use on forums, avatars, favourite quotes, colour options, layout settings. Its not that I’m never happy with my decisions, far from it - rather I prefer that fresh feeling you get when you change something small. Like it has a bearing on your life because it refreshes the daily monotonies of life. Maybe its because I have numerous interests and hobbies. One morning I feel in the Comic Book mood. So I change accordingly. Other mornings, I hop in the MINI and am suddenly keen for a good drive. So my computer wallpaper changes accordingly. I may see a gorgeous exotic supercar drive by. Cue another change. Something I read might spark my interest in the World. A photo on National Geographic. My mood defines my change.
Others require more effort. Changing my job for instance. I know I can’t be here forever. I can’t stay in a small company with nowhere to move in an industry that looks for people with the ‘team player’ status attached to their resume. I’m too loyal to the company that gave me my first big break. In a way, rightly so. But I can’t stay in the same position on the same wage and watch idly by as the dream of owning a home gets harder and harder to realise. But I can’t make the move into the unknown just yet. And I don’t know why.
Its a tough cycle.
Kate said,
May 16, 2007 @ 12:56 pm
I am the same. I change my profiles and what not constantly also. I think it’s what you said - the feeling of fresh and something new in a monotonous cycle.
And what would make me even happier is if occasionally you may change your wallpaper to a nice picture of me and you…Instead of walking into your room to see Christina Aguilera grinning at me. That would make my day. In fact it would make yours too because then i wouldn’t pick a fight with you about how much you love Christinas’ body/looks more than you love mine haha!
It’s getting crazy Scott. I think I was right last night. We have far too much in common!
As long as you don’t change your love life I’ll be happy
vanwall said,
May 16, 2007 @ 4:50 pm
I waited a bit too long myself a few years ago, and then I made the jump - it was pretty wrenching, but I’m still on good terms with my old outfit, luckily. I’m never sure if it was the perfect change, nothing is without flaws, but it was something I needed to do, and even tho I prolly wasn’t quick enough about it, at least i made the change for the better. It was tougher than changing my laptop wallpaper, but it was worth it.
ScottyB said,
May 16, 2007 @ 9:44 pm
Now Kate, you know I’ve never had a wallpaper of Christina Aguilera! I’m far more obsessed with fast cars and in particular - my MINI - to allow anything else to grace the computer desktop. With any luck though, another computer will be on its way soon enough.
Maybe then I’ll broaden my wallpaper setting horizons…
V - thanks for the words. I expect that I’d be in the same sort of situation.. I would really like to do something on good terms. Even if it involved coming back in part time or something along those lines, just allowing me to expand my profile and try something else!
lauraf said,
May 19, 2007 @ 8:10 am
Jump! Regret the things you do, not the ones you don’t
Hey, I’m a pro changer, forum stuff happens on the 10th of never, other stuff more quickly…..